got one of the worst scores Sears has ever seen on the AP2D exam.

because her students never get below a 5.

I don't even feel like picking my camera up anymore.
I took it out today and took no pictures.
I'm just. losing it.

I may delete my deviantart.

I really need some. logic. encouragement. anything if anyone's got it... I need help. I just feel like shit right now.

I really need to update this.

things are okay.
as far as art goes, I changed my concentration four times and now I've finally settled on one. the theme is to show how design exists in nature by enhancing natural design with graphic design. or something like that. I haven't officially written this up yet I haven't really had to verbally describe it. but I think it's going to go well.

I got into my first choice (only choice school.) I only applied to one place so I'm super glad I got in. next fall I will attend Radford University and hopefully minor in photography while I study psychology. wOOt. I also thus far have over eight thousand dollars in financial aid so yay.

work is busy. which is good, things were so slow for a while. only problem; I worked over 20 hours this weekend. ugh. I need a break. I need a break from school, work, pressure. I need to sleep in.

anyway. hope you're all well. does anyone even use deviant anymore...

updated since my birthday.

so. here it is.
Starbucks eats my life. I smell like espresso and steamed milk. it sounds good, but it gets old.
...etc.

I somehow managed to get a 4.5 GPA. this time around and for the end of the semester... eh, I HIGHLY doubt it. so... sadface.
I applied to my top choice college. if I don't get in, I'll apply somewhere else.
if I don't get in I will be completely and utterly heartbroken.
it feels like I'm never home.
my room looks like... a few bookbags, a closet, armoire, and dresser exploded. (because well, they did. and I can't seem to find time to clean it up.)
it never feels like there's enough time in the day for school, work, eating, showering, and sleeping. I usually give up one or more of these things (and it's never school, work, or showering.)

I just pulled out three of my eyelashes. gross.

I designed this year's school sweatshirts/ t-shirts/ sweatpants. they look ballin'. I was happy.

photography isn't going as well as I'd like. I'm dreading concentration work. three pieces are due before the 23rd and I have no motivation to shoot and edit them.
but my breadth is finished and I think it's a winner. woo!

the only two people who really matter to me are never here.

sometimes I just think life sucks.
but, meh. can't be bad forever...

I got a 55-200mm lens for my birthday!
I'm so excited to use it

"I wish I were better at this."

I've found myself saying this a lot lately as it has applied to many various things.

including photography.
I can pretty much guarantee I have not taken a single picture since about July 5th.
this saddens me.

and I totally have not started photo assignments for AP2D.

woo!